SHOULD I?

back from work. tml is another tough day. its hari raya.
selamat hari raya to all muslim people! :D
enjoy your celebration(:
pal, i suddenly miss you ):
can we meet up for sakura?
i hope so. i really miss you pal):

i m starting to lose interest.
i dont wish to go on.
i m happy with my life now.
with friends, school life, night life and work.
i m sorry friends if i really couldn't go on.

i miss every single of the past.
i couldn't express why.
but that is how i m feeling right now.
i wish everything is back to the past.
back to where we used to be.
hanging out together...
msging each other...
seeing each other almost everyday...
yet, i have to stop every single of this misses.
not becos i can't move on, its becos i dont have courage to.
i need you badly.
my tears are rolling down again and again.
yet you never notice about it.
i was so eager and happy even it took just a few secs to see you.
even for a meal.
i m always looking forward to meet you.
still, you never notice about it.
do you know i need you badly?
do you know i need your shoulder?
do you know i need your words to make me stronger?
do you know how i really felt?
do you know every single thing i m doing right now?
i m crying. but do you really know?
perharps, this is the last time i m going to mention about you in my blog.
yes, i hope it shall be the last.
maybe you are all i ever wanted.

to my dearest god,
i pray for all my heart to let him pass his exam.
i shall pray hard.
hope it come true...