I HATE YOU!

i hate ue fer leaving me alone.
i hate ue fer making so lonely.
i realie hate you alot.
ue make me so love you.
yet ue broke my heart.
it had been some time since ue left me.
but i still rmb ue. alot n always.
ue make me incomplete.
i realie hate ue alot. damn hate ue.
thought it was over.
i could forget ue. but i couldn't.
i m not longer the cheerful n strong girl le.
ue cause me to be so weak n need a shoulder to rely on.
i m always tat lonely n yet ue went out wit other girls.
hais. tell me wad to do.
realie want to get over ue.
but i jus can't.
cos ue realie make me love ue so much.

love you always.

I HATE YOU!

HAIS! SIANS! :((


hais. had use ure hand campaign yesterdae. not fun cos i did not do anything at all. ((x after tat went fer 45 mins recess. hahas. den went up to the hall to have the stupid talk by vp fer 2 hrs. i was like alomst fainted. hais. hmm. but had lots of fun making yuting. hahas. bernice kept on making her. den we play bingo n secret number in the hall. den we cheer lohs.

after tat we went fer guides. yihua join us yesterdae. she ish quitting tracknfield liao. hais. sians. i m not going to have any peace at all. -.- hmm. not many activities happen bahs. so we play games. my first game was soccer. hais. twisted my toe n kanna hit by a ball.. hais. sians. pain until i realie cried out loud sia. my whole toe like cant move like tat. hais. i swear i will nvr play soccer again. hais. after tat. we cheer n sing song! WOHOOS! so loud sia. we had fun lahs. given timetable fer june holidae again. gt to come back to sch liao le. hais. sians. my timetable ish totally pack. gt campfire, training camp, need to come back fer lesson n retest, gt guides n my work. hais. totally pack lohs. dun think i will have any rest dae lohs. hais. took alot of consent form fer my tings. den nw gt cip at HIPS. hais. i gt three campfire to go. hais. den gt course to attend too. hais!!!!! WTH!

after tat went to have dinner at rp derhs KFC. saw andy. told him wad happen. but he insisted me on wearing covered shoe. what the hell. my toe ish hurt n he expect me to wear covered shoe. wonder how to work lata. maybe wear slipper go first lohs. den change. sians. alan ish going to laugh at me again. better walk properly lata. if not realie going to let him laugh at me. HERS! stupid alan. hahas. no wonder ue r so CUTE!! ((:

ALAN RAWKS! ((x

LALAS!~

hmm. todae went sch. dun feel like pon-ing sch. hahas. met henry in the morning. so tired. almost late fer sch. hahas. so malu lohs. stand at study-area jus to sing the stupid national anthem. wah lau. hahas. hmm. todae totally no lesson at all lohs. after tat. went fer meeting at 2. hahas. hmm. all abt international friendship stuff. hahas. so fun. saw alot of teacher wearing different country derhs costume. hahas. the nicest ish miss mohana. hers ish spain derhs. so pretty lohs. ohhs gosh. realie like a princess in the real world. how i wish i wear tat gown n dance wit him. hais. hahas. had fun playing in the hall. after tat went night market wit char fer awhile n went hm.

lata meeting ting n ling to watch ITC training. WOHOOS! i m going to seduce ss again. hahas. ling arhs. careful wors! LALALAS!~ den maybe going to night market again to play the crazy surf bahs. n helping my teacher to check fer her chicken porridge lohs. hahas. BYE! ((:

TEACHERS RAWKS! ((x

THEY SUCKS TILL HELL!!

alot of tings happen at a same time. hmm. let me recall.

on fridae:
hmm. had guides on fridae. quite boring lahs. but den had lots of fun in guides den. hmm. we went to clean n clear guides den stuff cos ish damn bloody hell dirty lohs. hahas. den suddenly gt 2 lizard which realie make the whole sec 3 scream until siao. thanks god gt me n ling to chase it away. the lizard had drop frm 2nd storey to 1st storey. n the hell thing ish it did not die. hahas. hmm. den after cleaning finish. it was the end of guides. n i think i was the last one to know tat mdm was pregeant. i was shock! ((: congrates! ((: wohoos! hmmm. after tat. went to eat at coffeeshop. suppose to eat at KFC. but den they went to TK have training. so end up nvr le lohs. ((: after tat. went to night market. had fun. ate the smelly tofu. its totally fake lohs. not even smelly at all. but its realie damn nice lohs. LOLS! ((:hahas. den went to play CRAZY SURF! it realie make me damn crazy lohs. hahas. so fun. kept on screaming n screaming. LOLS! ((: after tat went ling hse den went to 303 derhs night market again. bought hotdog n went hm. reach hm around 11 plus. ((:

on sat:
todae was damn sucks man. kanna scold by sim siong. end up cried. shaik come n scold me. the real fact ish staff dun even care abt me! THEY R TOTALLY HEARTLESS! the problem i did not even scold shaik parent n he sae tat. siao! no point toking to him. ue dun even won the respect frm me lohs. ue expect other ppl to respect ue but did ue respect the person? i did not care him n i continue to talk on the fone. wad ish the use of toking to him. totally useless. HE SUCKS MAN!

todae:
todae jus use new computer. WOHOOS! pentium 4 leis. SHUANG! ((x hais. lata working. gt to see tat guys face. see his face jiu sians. den alan not working. he off todae. he was damn angry yesterdae with suling cos she spoilt KFC property. hahas. suling. no worries okyas? after tat he will be alright derhs lahs. hahas. nvm. lata i will be having fun n inorge tat bloody hell guy! LALAS!~

SHAIK SUCKS! HE DOESN'T BELONG TO KFC AT ALL!

SHOOTS OFF! UE FREAK! LALAS!~ ((x

no longer tat strong girl anymore.
cried yesterdae.
i m too tired le. wad to do.
was everything cause by me?
no sure. had no idea.
maybe bahs. wad to do.
i m too tired to go le.
can't i jus put everything to a end.
can't be happie anymore.
realie can't be.
wanna to be a strong girl.
but no 1 anymore.
i wanna to be tat strong girl tat was before. :((

HAIS! SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!

hais. yesterdae quarrel wit alan fer no reason. in the end. everyone sae ish my fault! "WADEVER! DO UE THINK AS IF I CARE?" i cried. first time i make alan angry until veri jia lat. i m not the one who wans tis. i realie dun mean it. but they sae until ish my fault. hais. lata working. dunno wad to do. better keep my mouth shut. before something bad come out frm my mouth. hais. >.<>

hmm. todae had to attend sch. sians man. meet herny they all as usual. almost late. hahas. all that nicholas fault lahs. nvr sae dun wan to meet us. wah lau. made us wait like FOOLS! ((: hahas. i was complaining tired lohs. hahas. den henry cant tahan. he copied me! BLEAHS.. im tired means im tired! WAD UE WAN! ((: hahas. hmm. todae totally no lesson at all bahs. but go through maths n english paper. hahas. failed both subject n ish by 1 or 2 marks onli leis. why the teacher jus can't let me pass. wah lau. >.<

YEAHS! todae sch dae quite happie. went to music rooms twice. POA n during CME period. watch movie. TITANIC.! hahas. so happie. POA lesson onli 20++ ppl went to watch. cos A math student had lesson in the library. hahas. too bad! LALAS!~ but during CME lesson. it was totally fun lohs. whole cls went music room. our cls was named as the "HORNY BASTARD". hahas. cos tat movie gt the sensored thingy. so called the "R.A" part. hahas. den mdm yap keep on fast forward after tat the whole thing stop. these repeated totally three times. cos she dun let us watch tat kind of things mahs. >.<>

HAPPIE SCH DAE! ((:

LALAS!~ ((x

hmmm. yesterdae ish mother'sdae. suppose to give mummy present. but den make le not nice. so end up nvr give her. hais. another year passed le. so fast ish mother's dae. it was like yesterdae of last year ish mother's dae again. hahas. hmmm. yesterdae work. sians. gt to see sofian fer 5 nights. hais. when will i get to see alans. sians man! hahas. todae he work morning. but no night lohs. sians. den night need to see tat sofian face again. i realie damn hate his shift alot lohs. cos he everytime ask me to clean this clean tat. veri angry sia. hahas.

tonight will be a fun dae. suling n januver come back tonite!!! WOHOOS! tonite will be having fun lohs. realie miss the daes we had together at KFC especially when after work. we cn play. eat. have fun! hahas. hmm. another thing to announce. yesterdae was my 1/2 year at KFC le wors! hahas. so happie. it was like a few daes before i come in to work as a beginner. ((: i wanna to thanks catherine. klvin. sim siong. andreas. keng hei. all the manager n other stuff fer teaching me so much tings. ((: hahas. m i having a speech here? hahas.

KFC RAWKS! MY 1/2 YEAR LE WORS! ((:

MOOD WAS SPOILED TOTALLY BY 2 GUYS! :((

yesterdae had 6 cashiers. the largest group in KFC i think. ((: hmm.. had fun playing. hmm.. but yesterdae veri angry. kanna scold by shaik. den kanna shout by eugene. sae as if ish my fault. my mood was totally spoiled. i cried at the counter. realie veri angry.

den alan came and ask me wad happened. i did not ans wad happen. but he kept on asking. realie a veri caring guy. hahas. i realie wanna to thanks alan. realie wanna to thanks. without him. i realie wun have much laughter. no worries okyas? ((:

after tat. totally no mood to play at all. i did not talk after tat. i kept quiet throughout. alan ask me wad happen. but den i die die oso nvr ans his qn. hahas. tats why. ((: after tat. makan abit den stay outside of KFC. den kim they all take ice. n wanted to play. i did not play but kanna played by them. after tat sofian veri angry come out scold us. WAH LAU! end up nvr play oso kanna scolded. hais.

THEY SUCKS MAN! ((x

HAIS! SIANS!

hais. yesterdae make alan angry cos i dun wanna to work on mon n tue. he planned fer so long le. hais. msg him to sae sorrie. but no reply frm him. sorrie alan. realie so sorrie fer making him so angry. hais. i m so guilty nw. i dunno how to face him lata. HAIYOHS! i m so stress.

yesterdae went out wit xians n yings. nvr bought alot of things. but manage to buy a pencil case for myself n tings for my mom fer her mother's dae. mother's dae ish tml le. gt to rush liao. mus finish my stuff by todae. gt to burn midnight oil liao. hais. so happie. my pencil case ish so nice! ((:

manage to rush to KFC by 6 plus. still gt alot of time left. had no idea why sim siong n alan rush me fer nth. wah kao! ((: BLEAHS..BLEAHS.. hmm. lata will be fun le. cos gt xiao qi n kimberly. ((: bt gt tat lay ping n pei yun. wah lau. sians man! hope everything will be as normal bahs. ((:

yesterdae tears jus roll over me.
i cried. had no idea.
maybe i realie miss him too much bahs.
i miss him badly.
i m no longer a strong girl le.
i need a shoulder to rely on.
LONELINESS. ish inside my heart.
wanted to get rid. bt hard.
can i realie be a strong girl tat i was before?
imissyooLOTS!

DAMN FREAKING HAPPIE! WOHOOS! ((:


"PRINICESS SULING" little ugly CROWN! hahas. so old
n ugly lohs. ish jus a sotong lohs. LOLS! -.-

YEAHS! FINALLY! i finish my mid year paper le. so damn freaking happie. bt my chemistry like shit like tat. wah lau. hais. but ish the most happiest of my life. ((: went to hougang mall after sch to but ingredient to eat. hmm. have steamboat at me hse. hahas. so nice playing. after tat. reach hm le. hahas. ((: started marinate the chicken n all sort of thing.hmm.. after tat we started eating le. had so much fun playing n eating. but the butter keep on making me. making my face so oily. hais. the most fun i had ish wit suling lahs. the so called "PRINCESS SULING" but she ish NOT! ((: cos she ish a C-L-U-M-S-Y person. hahas. ((: hmm.. after tat. yong xiang they all came. hmm. play n play n play. play da di lohs. end up they won. but we have fun controlling the guys. ((: after that they went to eat. i went to prepare all my thing as i have to go KFC lata on. after tat. i quickly pack all my stuff n went there. TODAE WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST DAE OF MY LIFE. ((:

i wanna to be a strong girl.
but i have to pretend.
i can't be 1 anymore.
i m jus simply a lonely girl.
no more being cheerful. n tats ish FATE! :((

HAPPIE! WOHOOS! ((:

todae had english paper. hmm. not bad lahs. manage to finish in 1 hr time. den gt 40 mins to slp. :p hahas. after tat. gt 1 hr break. had fun wit angela n yi wen. we tested each other abt physics. hmm. had fun lohs. LALAS!~ after tat ish physics paper. hais. so boring. n ish damn freaking difficult lohs. hais. who was to blame. cos ish ryo tham set derhs mahs. so no choice lohs. after that. gt two hrs break. had fun at canteen. keep on playing wit bernice. peiying n jasmine. after that. went fer chinese paper 3. ting li. hais. so easy lohs. the marks was like meant to be given away derhs lohs. LOLS! after tat. went to rp. actually promised them to treat them pizza hut. but end up. go to KFC. cos of keong they all lohs. hahas. treat them KFC. oso have fun at KFC.. play at the playground. so fun. laugh until so loud. hahas.

went into the office. saw alan. hahas. he realie did had his hair cut. so cuteeeee.!! damn cute lohs. hahas. always sae me. nw mye turn to sae ue le. UE R TOTALLY LIKE A KID! so CUTEEE! ((x hahas. at least he wun kanna sae by RAFFID lohs. LOLS! ((x

after tat. walk hm wit jas, bernice. n faris. had lots of fun lohs. play, sing song. hais. bernice seems to be sad. hais. hope she ish alright bahs. take kaire bernice. although ue r sad. ue still have us. LALAS!~

FINALLY FINISH THE LONGEST PAPER! TIRED! >.<

BORING! -.-

todaes paper was maths. hais. totally no confidences at all. so tired to do all the paper. hais. hmm. quite difficult bahs. den went cp wit yuting they all. had breakfast cum lunch. hahas. den rush hm to had a shower n went to pei ying hse. on the way to her hse. there ish ish tis taxi uncle veri nagging n irritating. he ask me all sort of things like who ue vote fer n why ue vote fer them.? i was wondering. i was jus 15 years old. HOW CN I VOTE?! hais. but no choice. i gt to listen jus becos i can't get down the cab half way. hais. den reach pei ying hse. gt study physic abit. hmm. den oso gt play ps2 wit zakir they all abit. den sing song at kbox room oso. hahas. so fun.

hais. alan having BTB. so sians man! dunno whether he has cut his hair anot leis. hope he do. den dun need kanna scold by RAFFID! LOLS! ((x hais. he working tml morning. look forward to it. hahas. ((:

after went suling's hse. makan abit onli. den went to meet ting. den go plaza together to study. hmm. gt study alot. saw yong xiang they all. after tat. ting went to buy my bubble tea! MY SOURPLUM! so nice lohs. hahas. after tat went hm. so lonely. hais.

SO LONELY! :((

DEAR READERS!

if ue all r reading my blog.
pls stop asking qn abt it.
my blog ish writing abt my personal life.
ish none of every one business.
either ue all read it or ue all dun.
i m not writing abt anyone inside my blog. i m writing abt myself. -.-
so stop asking me question.
THANKS!

((x

HAIS! I M SUCKS! :((

jus as i tot. im realie veri stress. yesterdae totally no mood to work at all. i feel like i was a burden to KFC. hais. sians man. yesterdae did alot of careless things. especially giving alan trouble. sorrie, alan. realie so sorrie. no more interest in alan's shift le. hais. sians. he nw working. more sians ish lata ish andy's shift. life without alan ish so boring. but.. like without KFC ish more boring. ((x

thanks yuting fer ure bubble tea. but i realie dun like the taste of the oreo. cos its sucks lohs. hahas. i wan MY SOURPLUM DRINK! i dun care. i wan it. ue owe it to me derhs. hais. he jus wan to snatch the drink onli lohs. wah lau. ue this bloody hell guy. dun ue ever snatch my drink anymore le!! BLEAH.. BLEAH..!!

i realie dunno wad had happened to me.
i think i m lonely tats why.
i have no friends around me tat i cn go to.
i m realie tired n stress. i dun wish to go anymore.
i feel like putting an end to my life.
leaving away frm this world might be gd fer me.
hard fer me to go le. too tired.
sigh. -.-

LIVING IN THIS WORLD ISH SO DIFFICULT!

photo uploaded again le wors! ((:


YONG QUAN BULLIED ME! put tat stupid sign board on me.
EEE.. so dirty lohs.. -.-


qi. kim . me. us again wors! KFC RAWKS! ((x


me n quan. HE BUILLED ME! punch my face.
so PAIN! :((


me n quan again! we have fun at KFC! WOHOOS! ((x


qi. quan. me. being forced by quan to take photo derhs.
not i wan derhs. stupid quan! bang us together fer wad?!
((x


it was done by me! ((x hmm. the ingredients looks sucks.
i dun dare to eat it. hmm. gt sweet n spicy sauce, mayonaise
n chilli sauce. ((x hahas.

hais. i m stress.
i realie dunno wad to do.
alot of thing jus drop on me at once.
m i in wrong. maybe i m.
no one knows me well.
even my best friend don't.
i m realie away frm this world.
realie away.
being an ugly ducking maybe ish gd.
no one even bother abt me.
i feel like slapping myself.
all tis was caused by me.
i think i shld reflect.
hais. tell me do wad to do.
i dun wish to hurt anyone.
hais.
SORRIE ESTHER!

SORRIE EVERYONE! :((

HAIS!

second paper was over. quite happie. cos need not stay inside the cls room fer so long. hahas. after tat. went hm wit char. i was too tired. feel like slping. but end up went hm watch tv. so boring. hais. den after tat, went to work. i totally do not have the mood to work. i m really damn stress nw. hais. i have no strength to work. suppose to key in $14++ order, end up key $65++ order! wah lau. i had no idea wad happen to me lohs. maybe i m tired or stress bahs. actually nth to blog. i blog fer the sake of blogging. -.-

MISSING YOU! ((:

HAPPIE BURFDAE ANGELA! ((:

jus came frm rp. todae ish english paper 1 n ss paper. hmm. english was nt veri difficult. but fer ss. it was realie veri difficult. i promise yuting i will get 35/50. but nw dun think so le lohs. hahas. sorrie wors. hahas. too difficult fer me le. hmm.. wad a hard dae. gt to stay in side the cls room fer abt 4 hrs plus. tml ish chinese leis. i had no idea why my chinese has flung so much. isit becos of my teacher. maybe bahs. cos that teacher simply sucks lohs. wah lau. my xiao kang ish always the best lohs. hahas. onli cn try my best fer tml lohs.. hmm. went to rp after tat. eat kfc again. wah lau. so sians lohs. everytime eat n eat. hahas. but used to it le bahs. hmm. peiying they all come. quite alot bahs. eat n play. hahas. so fun bahs. but boring too. lata meeting yuting n suling to study. not chinese but e maths. i realie gt to buck up on my maths le. realie fail until veri jia lat. especially my coordinate geometry. hais. so mus ask ling n ting to teach me le. hahas. looking forward tml. cos working n ish alan's shift. hahas. life without him ish always veri boring! ((:

do ue think tat ure attitude dun sucks too. sae other wah lau. hais. ue r simply a bitch.. ohhs yahs. rmb. ue r not even qualified to be a bitch at all. go tok abt me. sae until as if ish my fault. when will ue ever side me. always went to help the culprit. wah lau. i hate tis. realie. wad abt ures? do ue think alot of ppl like ue? dream on lahs. wah lau.pls lahs. i nvr sae ue ish alrdy veri gd fer ue le lohs. but ue wan to destroy it. i have nth to sae. i wun care abt ue anymore. go side whoever ue wan to side. go believe whoever ue wan to believe. SHOOT OFF! UE BITCH!

DREAMING IN MY LALA~ LAND! ((:

PHOTO UPLOADED LE WORS! ((:


hmm. they r having ITC training now. shhh. dun disturb them.
JIA YOU WORS! i will support ue all derhs. YONG XIANG N ARZI!
JIA YOU! see ue during the compeition.


KENG HEI! he was too shy to take photo. hahas. ((:


MY GRANDFATHER OF KFC! ((: WOHOOS! so shuai! :D


hmm. was taken at CHIJ.. participated in the mini pioneering.
gt SECOND PLACE wors.. i m so proud of it. ((:


nice right? DONE BY.. SULING. HILMAH. n. OF COS ME! ((:

HAPPY! WOHOOS! :D

hahas. hmm. tml ish the start of the mid year le. hahas. so nervous. hais. but i want jia you derhs. i m going to PULL UP MY SOCKS LE!! WOHOOS! ((: jus nw so happy. went kfc. meet guan zhong. eugene n win win. hahas. so fun. went to the office play wit alan. hahas. so damn happie lohs.

den he suddenly msg me tell me tat he was at punggol. i was damn freaking happie. wanted to go there. but no one wan to pei me. hais. i m so sorrie. i did not manage to meet ue. i was damn sad. hais. ue wanted to know wad colour r ue in my heart. my ans to ue ish always purple. forever ish purple. nth else... LOVEYOULOTS! no one will replace ue.. ue r always my SWEET FOOL! ((:

JIA YOU FER MY MID YEAR!

I HOPE UE WISH ME GD LUCK!((: