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hmm. getting sick soon. gosh! wad m i going to do? see doctor again. bt i m too lazy. neither i wan to spend money. lols. going to sheri's chalet. maybe tonning tere bahs. hahas. hmm. tonight working cashier. worst come to worst ish i m working until 11 fer the entire week next week. how i wish alan ish back to plan my roster. he always knows me best. he knows wad to plan fer me. lols. bt he ish having annual leave nw. den alot of ppl coming to work. sim siong ish one of them. lols. aiya! faster come back leis. if nt my roster ish going to be ruined by tham le. hahas.
yesterdae did nt have fun at base. home d was damn busy. everything gt cocked up including the chicken. bt thank god my whipped did nt. lols. cos i belong to the high standard one. right yong xiang?! hahas. those low standard have to go yung ho work mahs. hais. actually wan to go siglap work on sat. cos ish andy's shift. so long nvr see andy liao. bt think veri bored there. no customer nt fun. hahas. i m used to crowd in le. lols. so more customer better. lols. after that went to throw rubbish. hmm. no mood at all lahs. going hm with almost whole body drenched. hais. realie gt no mood lahs.

JUS SMILE! ((: EVERYTHING ISH GOING TO BE OVER

SOON!

WORKING ON CHRISTMAS DAE! HAIS! )):

TEARS FROM POLARIS.

yesterdae was happie. it was a happie moment fer me until night time. in jus a moment, all my happiness has gone. its all gone. i had nth left with me. its jus me alone. no one to let me rely on. wad happened to me? i m nt back to the old me. every night i have to lie my blanket and cry. i m nt the strong liyun anymore. i can't be cheerful. i can't even laugh naturally as before. all i could do ish stay at one corner and cry. i hate myself. i hate my family. i hate every character of me. i m incomplete.

I HATE MYSELF!